Whenever I go out to take pictures for my blog, I tend to get a bit self conscious when there are people walking past and looking at me. Naturally, my thoughts are along the lines of ‘I bet they think I look like a right idiot’ or ‘I hope they don’t say something to me’, because a surprising amount of people feel comfortable with throwing a little remark or two out there, especially when they’ve got some friends with them for that moral support! Luckily this hasn’t happened to me so far whilst taking blog pictures, but I do expect some negativity because after all I am literally just striking a few poses to my boyfriend who is taking photos on my iPhone. I don’t even have a proper camera at the moment so I can appreciate the fact that it’s definitely obvious I’m an amateur!
Recently though I’ve become so much more comfortable with who I am and what I’m doing, and today I realised that I couldn’t care less if people are looking and thinking I look stupid. I appreciate that I almost definitely do look a bit stupid and awkward standing in front of a camera/ iPhone, and similarly frivolous and vain for taking picture of what I’m wearing. But I really, really love doing it. Granted, getting my picture taken is my least favourite part, but I really like writing about clothes, and also having somewhere I can write about literally anything I want, even if only a few people end up reading it! I think this is a good mentality to have about life in general, not just taking pictures! Obviously, there’s a difference between not caring about what your boss or employer thinks about you, and someone who just loves a good gossip, because of course the former is important! And of course it’s not an excuse to go around being horrible either!
Caring what people think of you is only natural, and can be a hard habit to break out of, but it’s also so damaging if it stops you from doing what you want to do, especially because the majority of people have their own things to deal with rather than worry about what you’re doing! I think this fear of other people’s opinions comes a lot from not knowing people’s genuine thoughts. So many people say one thing about someone, and act completely differently to their face, which I think is what resonates with a lot of people, including myself. A lot of the time I’d find myself thinking, ‘if they can say horrible things about so and so, but be their absolute best friend to their face, what are they saying about me?’ and thoughts like these can stop a lot of people doing the things that they’re really passionate about.
I didn’t actually intend to ramble on this much, or dedicate a post to something #deep but I thought I’d just write about something that’s been on my mind, which is what I want this blog to incorporate away!
What I’m basically trying to say in a nutshell is, care less and embrace looking stupid more.
SKIRT | TOPSHOP (sold out, similar here)
JUMPER | PRIMARK (in store, similar here)
SHOES | PRIMARK (in store, similar here)
SHIRT | MARKS AND SPENCER (sold out, similar here)
FISHNETS | PRIMARK (in store, similar here)
BAG | TULA (similar here)